Five months passes by like gust of wind. I've been working on a hell of a lot of projects both in school and outside of it, and finally I've found a good balance. I've been doing some of my own design work along with painting and writing. Ever since I got back from New York I've been excreting all of my creative juices and watching what grows from it. Currently in my pile of projects I'm focusing on a script I've entitled The Sad Clowns. It's a story that not everyone will relate to I'm sure, but hopefully a good part of you will enjoy. The storyline revolves around a group of alcoholic clowns that find comfort in discussing their lives and ambitions with each other in a local bar.It shows a perspective on the 'clowns' of society anywhere from clowns themselves to comedians and other entertainers that devote their lives to making other people smile, even during the hardest of times.
Speaking of writing, that book that I planned on self publishing last Summer took a complete 360, and has recently took that 360 back and is also continuing towards completion. After reviewing hundreds of poems I've written over the years, and realizing a large portion of them are complete garbage, I've decided to avoid the volumes idea and just get something out there at least. I've compiled 50 of my favourites together, and just settled on working with a local photographer to capture the images I need to give the book the right feel. I expect it to be complete sometime in April if not sooner. It feels great to be back where I want to be with my work.
Ever since September I've been very frustrated and angry in a lot of ways, and after a more thorough look around myself I've come to learn that the energy around me has a lot to do with my productivity. Living in such a small place has beaten me down for many years, and being around negative people just sucks the life from me. When I'm excited for a project and others don't show any support I usually end up giving up on the idea and finding something else to work with, which can leave a person very hollow inside. I've learned from that hollow feeling, and filled it with I-don't-give-a-fuck-who-likes-it-as-long-as-I-do positivity! I mean which is better, producing a large amount of shit artwork/writing, or producing no artwork/writing and feeling like shit. I'm gonna keep on creating, and stop waiting for someone to motivate me. Motivate yourself, and support others.
