Ladies & Gentlemen...The Sad Clowns

Five months passes by like gust of wind. I've been working on a hell of a lot of projects both in school and outside of it, and finally I've found a good balance. I've been doing some of my own design work along with painting and writing. Ever since I got back from New York I've been excreting all of my creative juices and watching what grows from it.

Currently in my pile of projects I'm focusing on a script I've entitled The Sad Clowns. It's a story that not everyone will relate to I'm sure, but hopefully a good part of you will enjoy. The storyline revolves around a group of alcoholic clowns that find comfort in discussing their lives and ambitions with each other in a local bar.It shows a perspective on the 'clowns' of society anywhere from clowns themselves to comedians and other entertainers that devote their lives to making other people smile, even during the hardest of times.

Speaking of writing, that book that I planned on self publishing last Summer took a complete 360, and has recently took that 360 back and is also continuing towards completion. After reviewing hundreds of poems I've written over the years, and realizing a large portion of them are complete garbage, I've decided to avoid the volumes idea and just get something out there at least. I've compiled 50 of my favourites together, and just settled on working with a local photographer to capture the images I need to give the book the right feel. I expect it to be complete sometime in April if not sooner. It feels great to be back where I want to be with my work.

Ever since September I've been very frustrated and angry in a lot of ways, and after a more thorough look around myself I've come to learn that the energy around me has a lot to do with my productivity. Living in such a small place has beaten me down for many years, and being around negative people just sucks the life from me. When I'm excited for a project and others don't show any support I usually end up giving up on the idea and finding something else to work with, which can leave a person very hollow inside. I've learned from that hollow feeling, and filled it with I-don't-give-a-fuck-who-likes-it-as-long-as-I-do positivity! I mean which is better, producing a large amount of shit artwork/writing, or producing no artwork/writing and feeling like shit. I'm gonna keep on creating, and stop waiting for someone to motivate me. Motivate yourself, and support others.

Stuck Inside An Oxford Coma

Apples To Oranges

For most, I'm sure this Summer has been far too short, but for me it's been a long and painful stretch of undying time. Not to go into great detail, but this has been an incredibly rough time occupationally for me, and I've wasted far too much time worrying and stressing out about saving money for school and to make payments. I've finally begun to find peace with this dry spell, and am working full force towards future endeavors. I've been doing a lot of practicing with some of my computer editing programs, and am becoming much more comfortable and accurate in emulating what my original ideas were from the start. Of course I've always found inspiration from "creepy" or "disturbing" imagery, which leads me to the hope that I will one day be hired to do design work for a horror movie company or such. All in all, I'm happy with the path I've chosen, and I'm truly looking forward to this upcoming year, where I will absorb everything related to design that I possibly can, and then with all confidence find a career that will steer me away from the hopelessness that my past 20+ "jobs" over a period of twelve years have driven me to. Living on a small island where everyone knows you, or someone related to you has never appealed to me, and since I've come back to this place I've felt nothing but out of place. I feel that this shows in my personality at times, and for this I hope no one around me takes offense to. After all, I do have admiration for those who find comfort in this isle and small town warmth, it's just never been my way. What I'm really looking forward to is discovering success in my own way, and then meeting you all again at a new perspective, when I've left these surroundings. Then you will see the relaxed and excited Mitch again. All in good time my friends, all in good time. For those of you who haven't seen me hardly at all this Summer, this is why, and I'm sure you'll all understand. With the Autumn air fighting its way towards us, I'm feeling fresh and inspired. Keep an eye out for my new productivity, I think you'll enjoy. Salut!

Intentions

Burn through the heart

and empty the soul

Reflect on the damage,

the time that you stole.

Was it for nothing but

greed and false wealth,

or did it appease you,

and contribute to yourself?

Desires so distorted

and needs unfulfilled,

Something to hold onto,

towards something to build.

A land of confusion,

intentions so pure,

misplaced and unnoticed,

nothing's for sure.

Continuing On...

     I haven't made a post in quite some time now, being busy with several creative projects, so I thought I'd stay up to date by adding an old painting which I've recently continued working on. This little piece has been lingering on for years now, waiting to be finished, but I still can't seem to find peace with it. I've decided to give it a bit more thought and start again, but for now I'm working on a new, rather large piece that I will hopefully submit sometime this month. I'm also still in the works of deciding what poems I want to have published, and have decided not to do a full book of my older works seeing as they are just too childish in my opinion, and I can't appreciate them as I used to. Maybe someday, but for now I'd like to publish the stuff I'm more proud of. Other than that stuff I've been living life through experience and watching disturbing movies to provoke nightmares which inspire me, and to work on a creative writing essay about the disturbing imagery we watch and why we want to see it. Some of these nightmares are also inspiring my painting lately, and although I believe it makes for interesting work, the nightmares are wearing my mind down, making me irritable, and feel sick, so I think I'll have to put this project aside for awhile. Seeing as it's Summertime, and I'm enjoying it, I don't want to ruin it by depriving myself of joy. Hope everyone is feeling as inspired as I am! Salut!

***FiXaTionS***

For those of you who are interested, or have yet to hear about my writing, I've decided to finally publish some of my older works. The first book I'll be publishing will more than likely be titled under it's original name back in 2001, "Fixations". Currently I have compiled an anthology of all of my poetry from 2000-2009, and there's a lot, so I've decided to make separate volumes. The first will be work from 2000-2003, and if all goes well, I'll continue publishing the next volumes. It will be interesting to see the change/evolution of my writing over the years, especially since these original poems were in the wake of my adolescence, and so much has changed with me since then. Each volume is almost as if it's written by a different person. So, now that you know, I hope I can count on all of your support. I'll update my blog as this project comes to fruition, and if there is any interest in purchasing the book I can be contacted here, or on facebook. Thanks guys!

Blind Love

16" x 20" Acrylic on canvas